55.3kgs
I am amazed. I wasn't going to weight myself this morning as I didn't want to know if I had put on weight. Haven't been following a diet and have been having a few drinks here and there. This is the weight I wanted to be at but just couldn't get rid of those last 4 kgs. Even just before I got pregnant I was 60kgs but I am quite happy with my weight. I still train every day but as mentioned before have cut it down to 4 weight sessions a week of only 30mins, supersetting so it is quite a tough workout as my heart rate is contstantly up and then 30 mins of cardio afterwards. The days I don't do weights I usually do a spin class. This means I have lost 20kgs since giving birth without following a diet. Quite impressive. Don't get me wrong I do watch what I eat but if I want something I will have it just a little bit, this is working for me as I am not obsessing like I did before about what I can and cannot eat. I am 165cms so the doc has told me not to loose any more weight as I am trying for number 2 and to get pregnant a little weight is good.
Having a bad day.
Haven't been sleeping at all well, still have some sleeping tabs left from the doc but want to wait until I get my period until I take them. Just having a bad day today, probably because I'm tired and I don't feel well. I am so, so bloated so it must be that time. Jay has also been grumpy all day and didn't know what to do with himself the last 2 hours before bed, which wasn't good for me as hubby has gone to night shift, I'm not well and I just didn't want to deal with it. Thankfully he went to bed straight away and now I'm sitting here just thinking what a bad mood I'm in, I'm bored and lonely. I need to get out and do something exciting. I am goind on a girls night on Saturday night but I hate Northbridge so probably won't be that exciting just annoying looking at all the drunk people!!
On another note, I have signed up to do a makeup artistry course so I am really looking forward to it. I will start up my own business and if all goes well I won't have to go back to work.
Warning - a whinge.....
I have decided I hate my new gym! You may ask why!! Equipment wise its brilliant and I love the spin classes or at least I did. Maybe its because I have depression and I'm finding everything hard at the moment, but when I was at Zest people were so nice, even if you didn't know them. This lady was so rude to me yesterday and I was going to tell her to f*** off but I held my tongue. She was on the lat pulldown which I didn't even know as I didn't see her on it, so I wondered over to use it and she barked out really nastily "i'm on it" from behind me. No "excuse me I'm using it" or "would you like to work in". This is not the first time I've had it either and I don't like working out in an environment like that. She kept giving me evil looks and I'm just wondering if she's jealous that I have lost weight since I've been there and she still looks the same. I'm thinking of seeing if I can get my money back but I doubt it!!!
I have not gone back to work I have extended my maternity leave for another year due to mental health, but the funny thing is I am now ready to return. I need to do something as I'm finding it really full on at home and need that break and adult contact. I want to do a makeup course but it starts in 2 weeks time and mum is sick so she can't look after Jay so I have to wait 6 weeks until the next course but I fear by this time I may be working......
On the training note I have changed things quite alot. My life doesn't revolve around making sure I lift heavy weights anymore plus doing an hour of cardio. I have changed to supersetting, still 4 times a week but only for 30 mins then 30 mins cardio after, so I'm doing no more than an hour. I have even swapped some cardio for an hours powerwalk a couple of times a week just to get me outside in the fresh air. I did legs the other day and focusing more on plyometric moves, well I still have severe doms 4 days later so finding it a bit hard on the cardio front.
